The day I died

My son I am no different from you , all the passions you now felt ,I once was yoked by them. It wasn't easy at all the struggle to be righteous by your own effort is a never ending journey and normally we falter in all our efforts.

What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ. Philippians3:8 NIV

Never let anxiety and self condemnation be your daily bread , our enemy is always on the rampage seeking the weak who are always reminded of their sins ,so they would feel useless and continue living in sin.

The more you live in sin the harder it is to live to your full potential.. but all hope is not lost there is is Jesus Christ who can give you a true and better identity.

It started by a puff of smoke and the next thing it was booze ... The happiness the earth offers is of no value the end is only death. Before I knew it I was changing girls like I would my underwear , committing adultery seemed fashionable but the more I moved from one girl to the next the more I got confused about relationships.. 

No woman would quench the thirst I had for fulfillment , I did not stop myself from experimenting ,but all women seemed the same .. then I wondered why did the Bible put value in marriage when all I felt was dissatisfaction in relationships.

I am no bad parent at all , me and your mother we just couldn't make it ,we were too young or to be blunt I was drowning in the world that I lost focus on the real essence of life .

I followed after worldly pleasures,  Ohhh yes I had to be very fashionable girls liked a man who dressed in a certain way .. it was really easy in our days .. dress a certain way ,drive a car and you can get any woman you want...Vanity of vanities it is.

The world had taken me on a journey of no return , the music I listened to encouraged me to act and think in a certain way... This is not new my son... What you are facing is not new at all .

But the Devil operates by stealing time from the children of God. Time wasted is never regained... the time I realised the folly of worldly pleasures I had lost you , and I had already passed my youth, with nothing to show ,only failed marriages , poverty and depression.I had by this time attempted suicide 3 times , I could tell my life was going nowhere.

I had tried every brand of alcohol I knew of to get rid of the emptiness inside of me , and yes I used drugs too... Talk of marijuana I became addicted to it too ...but all of these things are useless , just a weapon used by the devil to keep mankind in chains.

But I met Jesus Christ ,he changed my life.. My life changed after I was introduced to the Jesus Christ of the Bible.

My son obey the commandment of God and do not let anyone or anything derail you from serving him , he loves you the way you are. I am begging you today come and taste the love of God in Jesus Christ you will testify.

Have more time studying the word of God .. Your success is only assured in Jesus Christ.

Give your life to God 

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When Einstein gave lectures at U.S. universities, the recurring question that students asked him most was:

- Do you believe in God?

And he always answered:

- I believe in the God of Spinoza.

Baruch de Spinoza was a Dutch philosopher considered one of the great rationalists of 17th century philosophy, along with Descartes.

(Spinoza) : God would say:

Stop praying.

What I want you to do is go out into the world and enjoy your life. I want you to sing, have fun and enjoy everything I've made for you.

Stop going into those dark, cold temples that you built yourself and saying they are my house. My house is in the mountains, in the woods, rivers, lakes, beaches. That's where I live and there I express my love for you.

Stop blaming me for your miserable life; I never told you there was anything wrong with you or that you were a sinner, or that your sexuality was a bad thing. Sex is a gift I have given you and with which you can express your love, your ecstasy, your joy. So don't blame me for everything they made you believe.

Stop reading alleged sacred scriptures that have nothing to do with me. If you can't read me in a sunrise, in a landscape, in the look of your friends, in your son's eyes... ➤ you will find me in no book!

Stop asking me "will you tell me how to do my job?" Stop being so scared of me. I do not judge you or criticize you, nor get angry, or bothered. I am pure love.

Stop asking for forgiveness, there's nothing to forgive. If I made you... I filled you with passions, limitations, pleasures, feelings, needs, inconsistencies... free will. How can I blame you if you respond to something I put in you? How can I punish you for being the way you are, if I'm the one who made you? Do you think I could create a place to burn all my children who behave badly for the rest of eternity? What kind of god would do that?

Respect your peers and don't do what you don't want for yourself. All I ask is that you pay attention in your life, that alertness is your guide.

My beloved, this life is not a test, not a step on the way, not a rehearsal, nor a prelude to paradise. This life is the only thing here and now and it is all you need.

I have set you absolutely free, no prizes or punishments, no sins or virtues, no one carries a marker, no one keeps a record.

You are absolutely free to create in your life. Heaven or hell.

➤ I can't tell you if there's anything after this life but I can give you a tip. Live as if there is not. As if this is your only chance to enjoy, to love, to exist.

So, if there's nothing after, then you will have enjoyed the opportunity I gave you. And if there is, rest assured that I won't ask if you behaved right or wrong, I'll ask. Did you like it? Did you have fun? What did you enjoy the most? What did you learn?...

Stop believing in me; believing is assuming, guessing, imagining. I don't want you to believe in me, I want you to believe in you. I want you to feel me in you when you kiss your beloved, when you tuck in your little girl, when you caress your dog, when you bathe in the sea.

Stop praising me, what kind of egomaniac God do you think I am?

I'm bored being praised. I'm tired of being thanked. Feeling grateful? Prove it by taking care of yourself, your health, your relationships, the world. Express your joy! That's the way to praise me.

Stop complicating things and repeating as a parakeet what you've been taught about me.

What do you need more miracles for? So many explanations?

The only thing for sure is that you are here, that you are alive, that this world is full of wonders.

- Spinoza