Saturday, November 14, 2020

Is it normal to constantly doubt your relationship

I am in love with a beautiful woman ,man I love her so much words alone can't describe it. We been together for a while and have a son together .

I do have 2 other kids from my previous relationship which went sour after I discovered that my previous woman was cheating I ended the relationship.Now I am with this woman constantly I am doubting her is there something wrong with me.

As much as I want her to be happy I always find myself constantly doubting her words and her movements . I always feel like she is hiding stuff from me like her whereabouts etc.

Am I really ready mentally for this relationship ,yes I have caught her lying to me on certain occasions .I am really confused and don't know what to do!

Tuesday, November 3, 2020

Licensed to be different

You are not to curse the deaf, nor put a stumbling block before the blind, but you shall fear your God. I am Adonai .
Leviticus 19:14 TLV

In this day and age whereby faults of other people , scandal and misfortunes of people are always on the headlines due to miscalculation or overlooking certain laws it really requires discipline on our part not to partake in mockery of an unfortunate individual.

The Good Samaritan story gives us a good example ,Most of us have become gurus in giving excuses of not being involved in helping the ignorant people,soul winning every one is too busy to be involved..but are always there to give reasons why your friend was responsible for their break up . misfortune

The case of Job gives us a certain scenario ...Job is in pain .. picture this his wife suggested he curse his God and die ...his friends came to accuse him of sinning ...they actually said he deserved the punishment ..

How many times do we kill hurting people with our words ,it's high time we learn ..in as much as the blind and deaf are disobeying all the natural laws or God's ordinances we are instructed to correct them with love

It's a pity most people are backsliding because we are quick to give judgement...leaven of Pharisees..this year we are to rise above cursing the deaf and putting stumbling blocks on the blind.

Being Christ-like calls for compassion in place of judgement. Wisdom is acquired in compassion. Jesus once said wisdom is acquired where there is mourning..when he was on the cross instead of cursing he pleaded with God to forgive his tormentors.

We have a similar case in the old testament whereby prophet Elijah was surrounded by an army..his servant was shaking in fear ..he prayed so God could open the servant eyes to see the army of Angels on their side.

I am challenging you my friend learn to pray for God to open the eyes of people around you ..Pray on their behalf for God to open their ears so they could understand..

We have a role to play...I consider it my duty to be a watchman for everyone around me..God is changing their lives ,their vision to be restored .,sharpen their discerning senses on your knees

We are licensed to be different ,we can't afford to be dormant,a watchman's duty won't allow me to just sit and do nothing.

Rise above the norm.. mockery and backbiting is not in our DNA...be involved leave no chance for the devil to bring terror in your family and on your friends.

God gave us power to destroy the works of the enemy..What kind of soldier are you if you laugh ,curse and with your actions are a stumbling block to your fellow brother..

But then you argue that they don't allow you to help...or that they have pride or whatever reason you might give ..wch cld be valid from the modern way of thinking..but I bet you no one can stop you from praying for the needy ..

It's time to conquer..Rise above mediocrity we only rise by lifting others ,helping others with their yoke is what separates us from the masses..

Shalom

#rise

Count yourself blessed

“You’re blessed when you’re at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule


“You’re blessed when you feel you’ve lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you.

“You’re blessed when you’re content with just who you are—no more, no less. That’s the moment you find yourselves proud owners of everything that can’t be bought.

“You’re blessed when you’ve worked up a good appetite for God. He’s food and drink in the best meal you’ll ever eat. “You’re blessed when you care. At the moment of being ‘care-full,’ you find yourselves cared for.

“You’re blessed when you get your inside world—your mind and heart—put right. Then you can see God in the outside world.

“You’re blessed when you can show people how to cooperate instead of compete or fight. That’s when you discover who you really are, and your place in God’s family.

“You’re blessed when your commitment to God provokes persecution. The persecution drives you even deeper into God’s kingdom

. “Not only that—count yourselves blessed every time people put you down or throw you out or speak lies about you to discredit me. What it means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. You can be glad when that happens—give a cheer, even!—for though they don’t like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that you are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble.


Matthew 5:3‭-‬12 MSG

Just me thinking

It is every man worst nightmare dating or marrying someone with a crazy past..because in the back of your mind you still feel she is still the same person she was back then... You will be constantly competing with shadows trying to impress .trying to be the best thing that ever happened to her...bt how can you compete with what you really don't know? ???.vanity of vanities 

You get an innocent girl you marry her the world changes her she becomes your worst nightmare. ..is there any value in marriage at all....do we really have to marry...in marriage who benefits most. . Should we just follow what Apostle Paul suggested ..(it is better that you stay alone. .).. Y


You make children the government dictates on how you should discipline them. .if you discipline them in a way they don't approve they refer to it as abuse. ...if your kid becomes a menace in the street it is all blamed on poor parenting. 
..confusing it is. . Christians suggest we use our knees in dealing with every challenges in our lives..the world suggest we must be in control of our environment. .

 The bottom line is the world is rotating too fast for us..lots of wisdom is at our reach..and most of the times this knowledge is contradictory depending on who you believe you are.. If you want to achieve anything out of this life..choose one path of life and stick to it. .shun all the other wisdom contrary to your beliefs. .thus you will live a pure life ... 

 Indecision is a killer...you can't serve two masters..there is one God and one truth..all the other wisdom or knowledge the world is giving is useless... Seek God with all your heart you shall live...worry not about the world ,its pleasures and the worldly demands or else you will fail on worshipping God fully.... 

 Do not give your life fully to anything in the world. .devote your life to be Christ like..do not expect anything from the world. ..marriage wont give you happiness and fulfillment in life only God can give you that if you put him first in your life... Money alone wont give you happiness. .if God is not part of that money ..woe to you for many are your sorrows... Lets learn to submit to God so he can reveal his secrets to us..so our lives can be protected. ..

But sanctify the Lord

But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts, and always be ready to give a defense to everyone who asks you a reason for the hope that is in you, with meekness and fear;
I Peter 3:15 NKJV

sanctify [v. a.]:

P 1. Make holy, cleanse from sin.
2. Consecrate, hallow, purify.
3. Sanction, justify, ratify.

I am always emphasizing the importance of words we use ,pure transformation starts with a change of vocabulary . Your perspective of God should change first ,you can't have a fulfilling relationship with God you don't understand ,seek to understand him in the Bible his personality doesn't change from the beginning of time in the days of Adam to date he has been consistent with his character.

He changes not ,but we due to fear and misconceptions we end up viewing him as a personality bend on punishing evil doers, Adam hid himself after commiting sin ,he didn't understand that he is a forgiving God too.Adam did not beg for forgiveness instead he blamed Eve ,and Eve blamed the snake.How many times have you blamed other people or circumstances for your actions instead of taking full responsibility??

It is your responsibility to sanctify God in your heart but how you might ask ,by the confession of your mouth. Your tongue and your mind ,must be under control .

“Teach me, and I will hold my tongue; Cause me to understand wherein I have erred.
Job 6:24 NKJV

My tongue shall speak of Your word, For all Your commandments are righteousness.
Psalms 119:172 NKJV

Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.
Proverbs 18:21 NKJV

God is omnipotent ,he provides our every need . I call him God of restoration whatever you might have lost ,he is preparing something better. He has favoured me ,at one stage I lost everything but he restored my identity.

The best decision I made with my life was to give my life to Jesus Christ ,man it was worth it .My life has been restored.

He gives wisdom to the meek,God who gives identity to the lowly in society , God who gives hope to the hopeless.Jesus washed me clean from all the infirmity .I am glad to be identified with Christ.

God loves you .

Amen

Study the word

Call to discipleship

And it came to pass, that, as Jesus sat at meat in his house, many publicans and sinners sat also together with Jesus and his disciples: for there were many, and they followed him. And when the scribes and Pharisees saw him eat with publicans and sinners, they said unto his disciples, How is it that he eateth and drinketh with publicans and sinners? When Jesus heard it, he saith unto them, They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.
Mark 2:15‭-‬17 KJV

Welcome back it's been a while since I last posted anything on this page but today I felt the urge for us to discuss on this topic.

Jesus here is being judged obviously by the Pharisees for eating and dining with sinners ,this type of group you always find them in the church they always find fault at anything new or anything they don't approve. We notice here that Pharisees and Sadducees were the law ,they represented the Mosaic law ,whatsover they didn't approve would lead to punishment.

In the church doctrine ,has led us to have such people in our midst they have studied and mastered church doctrine but have forgotten that Jesus gave us one instruction to make disciples all over the world ,that's the main goal of every Christian to make disciples . Making disciples is the goal and teaching them what Christ taught us.

If every one of us would bring one soul to Christ that would please the Lord .,but people are so bend on proving each other wrong that the church on its own is pushing people back into the world . I am not against doctrine but I believe that once we stick to the main goal of making disciples all over the world some problems we are facing will end.

One of my favourite pastor once said that we are living in an era whereby Christians are moving from church to church ,there are confused , instead of sinners coming to Christ leaving the world , believers in church A are leaving their church to join church B ,which brings us back to our main goal Are we being effective at the task Jesus left us.????

It's now a common site for Pastor A to use his pulpit telling the world that Pastor B is leading them to hell ,in actual sense he is telling congregants in Pastor B's church to join his church if they want to go to heaven . Pharisees were in a dilemma Jesus was gaining momentum and had many followers ,Pharisees were loosing ground so to maintain their authority they wanted to prove to everyone that Jesus was doing things wrong .Their approach was to question him in public ,now you see ,they always questioned him in public so that he would loose followers or so that the masses would stone him to death. I am sure this approach you have noticed it also where you come from .

For we dare not make ourselves of the number, or compare ourselves with some that commend themselves: but they measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing themselves among themselves, are not wise. But we will not boast of things without our measure, but according to the measure of the rule which God hath distributed to us, a measure to reach even unto you. For we stretch not ourselves beyond our measure, as though we reached not unto you: for we are come as far as to you also in preaching the gospel of Christ: Not boasting of things without our measure, that is, of other men's labours; but having hope, when your faith is increased, that we shall be enlarged by you according to our rule abundantly, To preach the gospel in the regions beyond you, and not to boast in another man's line of things made ready to our hand. But he that glorieth, let him glory in the Lord. For not he that commendeth himself is approved, but whom the Lord commendeth.
2 Corinthians 10:12‭-‬18 KJV

The world need to know about Christ not people ,The aim is to glorify God not humans when you preach you are making disciples for God and not for yourself . The Pharisees mentality it strives to get the attention to self and not to God . Glory belong to God and Jesus Christ the only way to God. We are witnesses to God's love we confess what we have witnessed for once we were worshipping dead things ,we were slaves to things fashioned by men , we were slaves to superstitions ,we were worshipping the sun and moon but now we are saved from that bondage. For JESUS'S blood cleansed us , he created a new heart in us .Jesus deserves all the glory ,we are bodies used for his purpose and he takes pride in working through us not because we deserve it NO because of his righteousness .God sees Jesus's righteousness in us and he worked his miracles through us.We are so privileged.

And Jesus knew their thoughts, and said unto them, Every kingdom divided against itself is brought to desolation; and every city or house divided against itself shall not stand: And if Satan cast out Satan, he is divided against himself; how shall then his kingdom stand? And if I by Beelzebub cast out devils, by whom do your children cast them out? therefore they shall be your judges. But if I cast out devils by the Spirit of God, then the kingdom of God is come unto you.
Matthew 12:25‭-‬28 KJV

Jesus once was accused of using evil spirits to cast out demons , isn't it funny history always repeats itself ,how many times have u heard pastors accusing other pastors of using evil powers from the devil.

Child of God let's remain focused on our purpose to preach the word of God to the ends of the Earth... Paul's approach was different to Peter's ministry , until Peter recieved that revelation One body different functions . Whatever you do let it be to glorify God .

Shalom be blessed and please feel free to ask questions or add anything .

Know yourself

Many are the sorrows of the ignorant , wisdom calls but woe to the deaf .Their eyes see but they can't understand, there is always a penalty for not using your ability .You can liken them to the deaf they hear the word but it means nothing to them.

In their houses all you hear are cries ,children crying ,parents crying their blindness is driving them to an endless pit ,They have rejected wisdom and understanding all their judgements are based on old woman's fables .

They toil day and night but hunger and poverty has become their middle name ,their barns are empty . Confusion and depression is their master , an easy target for adulterer and a thief . But were they made this way?

What happened here , aren't these the same people who were once favoured by God . They used to enjoy health but nowadays it's sickness after sickness why did you forsake them ohh God . A city once once envied has become ruins but what happened .

“But they have acted corruptly toward him; when they act so perversely, are they really his children? They are a deceitful and twisted generation. Is this the way you repay the Lord , you foolish and senseless people? Isn’t he your Father who created you? Has he not made you and established you?
Deuteronomy 32:5‭-‬6 NLT

Fear of God is the beginning of wisdom , we see here the true nature of a fallen man .After God has saved them from Egypt they had started worshipping idols again.History has proven to us the effects of peer pressure how it affects a nation ,they knew God had fought their battles but because of smaller things decided to worship idols.

Ungrateful nation , they had been liberated from the traditions and brutal force of the Egyptian Pharoah but still the Egyptian way of life was still engrained in their minds. Liberated from the world but still struggling with adultery . Liberated from the yokes of the devil but still eager to sin .

Liberated from using your mouth to curse your life but still have a habit of murmuring to God. Pharaoh had brainwashed this nation they had forgotten their true way of life , they had been accustomed to worshipping Egyptian gods . Could this be you still engaging in sinful behaviour ,Have you already forgotten how Jesus Christ died on the cross for your sake.

“The Lord saw this and drew back, provoked to anger by his own sons and daughters. He said, ‘I will abandon them; then see what becomes of them. For they are a twisted generation, children without integrity. They have roused my jealousy by worshiping things that are not God; they have provoked my anger with their useless idols. Now I will rouse their jealousy through people who are not even a people; I will provoke their anger through the foolish Gentiles. For my anger blazes forth like fire and burns to the depths of the grave. It devours the earth and all its crops and ignites the foundations of the mountains. I will heap disasters upon them and shoot them down with my arrows. I will weaken them with famine, burning fever, and deadly disease. I will send the fangs of wild beasts and poisonous snakes that glide in the dust. Outside, the sword will bring death, and inside, terror will strike both young men and young women, both infants and the aged.
Deuteronomy 32:19‭-‬25 NLT

Do not be fooled ,the Bible says Be ye Holy as I am Holy .Be ye separate ,there is no reason or purpose to sin . You don't have to do things that drives God to anger just because our neighbours are doing it. We are different from them ,we are the Light of this world a higher office we can't afford to defile self.

Soldier on, you are almost there God loves you .Pray that you do not fall into temptations .

Shalom

Now that I know

Don't count me out yet , I am still in the game .My enemy do not rejoice over my failures Jehovah Jireh fights my battle .Once tossed by life from pole to pole ,left for dead with friends I trusted , I began to think a lot about my life.

There are times in life that even your family members start avoiding you ,the very people you sacrificed a lot for start treating you like garbage ,where is your God they mock your very existence.

Who am I ,who is my friend ,who should I trust , were they really my friends. Do I really need to have friends in my life ? What did the Bible say about family ?,when I am in need of help who should I ask for help ? What did the Bible say about relationships.

As far as I was feeling low and gloomy I decided to start doing my own research , had no one to disturb me since I had lost friends .Was a loner so i really had nothing to loose. Who am I ? why do I get so hurt when people I help don't help me when I am in need ? How come I attract many fake friends who disappear when I need them most .?

Is something wrong with me ,what exactly should I change ? Is it something to do with my personality ? Had so many unanswered questions but I made one decision to trust in God. With my imperfections I submitted to him for purification. I needed someone to talk to ,he listened to my problems .

But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away. When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
1 Corinthians 13:10‭-‬11 KJV

It dawned on me ,that I don't need anyone's approval God designed me equipped for everything.God gave me freedom to be me ,all the time I was crying for friends he was trying to show me that I had to take a bold step alone . He gave me boldness to speak my mind without fear of prejudice.

The kingdom of God is within me ,don't need to fit in . My language changed from being a man of want to being content , eventually I became in love with myself . I am no longer identified with material possessions but they identify with me. Once I would buy things ,dress a certain way ,talk in a certain way to prove myself to everyone but I am liberated from that as well .

In Christ there is fulfilment ,God is love .The Lord is my shepherd I want no more Psalms 23. He has given me rest I can't comprehend .Thank you Jesus Christ for dying for me

Shalom

You are more than you know




 Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding.For wisdom is a defence, and money is a defence: but the excellency of knowledge is, that wisdom giveth life to them that have it.

But when he saw Jesus afar off, he ran and worshipped him, And cried with a loud voice, and said, What have I to do with thee, Jesus, thou Son of the most high God? I adjure thee by God, that thou torment me not. For he said unto him, Come out of the man, thou unclean spirit.
Mark 5:6‭-‬8 KJV

Here we see Jesus Christ approaching a man possessed with many demons but funny enough Legion saw him first and he ran to worship him. We would have expected the demons to make this man to run away from Jesus but they chose to defend their territory.

Legion worshipped Jesus and the demons in him ask Jesus a question which has so much meaning ,"why are you here to destroy us we have nothing to do with you Son of God?" they went on to plead with him in the name of God ,"

screaming out at the top of his lungs, “Leave me alone, Jesus, Son of the Most High God! Swear in God’s name that you won’t torture me!”
Mark 5:7 TPT

This story is a reflection of what is happening now .Jesus is calling you to a new life but you still want to engage earthly things . Apostle Paul said this in a better way that we must not be fashioned with the world. To reach your full potential your belief system should change ,you need to be born again that means completely erasing the old being and it's beliefs.

Some are arguing that they want to worship God but as homosexuals ,some are arguing that they want to worship God but as adulterers they are pleading using grace as an excuse. You know what happens afterwards, the demons kept begging they chose instead to inhabit pigs and all the pigs drowned. Legion was living at the cemetery a secluded place he was a cast out in the society they had tried locking him with chains but he was just too powerful for them.

He had become so attached to living in seclusion ,even after being set free he wanted to follow Jesus instead of going to his family. He was so possessed that his own family had given up on him ,I would say he was walking dead. Everyone had lost hope in him they feared him.

Are you struggling in your christian walk ?Is the dead past telling you that it is impossible to live right with God. This type of demons are so cunning they even negotiated with Jesus. Is your past telling you that you wont make it in life ?

Is your past telling you that you will never get married? Is your past telling you that you will never get a permanent job? Is your past telling you that you will never own a multimillion dollar company? The spirit of dead situations what is it communicating with you? This kind of demon makes people to avoid you ,if you get a job bosses and everyone else hates you , you get fired .

Leave the dead past to the past and be born again to be at oneness with God. Jesus once said let the dead bury themselves ,my friend you don't have any reason at all to associate yourself with people who still remind you of your past .You are now a new creature in Christ light and darkness can never be friends. Your life has been restored Legion you can go back to your family now and live a fruitful life.

You are now a new creature ,with new vision and new identity .The language itself changes when you become new creation for we know nothing is impossible for us why then are you seeking approval from people who see the impossible in everything. Let the dead bury themselves cut any ties with the cemetery mentality you deserve better .

You are immune to the sicknesses of Egypt why then do you seek advice on how to live your life from Egyptians .Be fully clothed in Christ Jesus ,resist any association with the devil. Accept your knew identity ,go into the world and set new records with Jesus Christ as your partner.

Do not forget to pray always for your life and the lives of your loved ones against this spirit .

To be continued .....

God loves you.

Shalom.

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