I am not perfect either

Small changes that's all it takes, the battle is all about conquering the flesh and it's desires .Wisdom is in admitting that you are not perfect and never to blame anyone or the situation but to carry your own cross.

The day I died

My son I am no different from you , all the passions you now felt ,I once was yoked by them. It wasn't easy at all the struggle to be righteous by your own effort is a never ending journey and normally we falter in all our efforts.

What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ. Philippians3:8 NIV

Never let anxiety and self condemnation be your daily bread , our enemy is always on the rampage seeking the weak who are always reminded of their sins ,so they would feel useless and continue living in sin.

The more you live in sin the harder it is to live to your full potential.. but all hope is not lost there is is Jesus Christ who can give you a true and better identity.

It started by a puff of smoke and the next thing it was booze ... The happiness the earth offers is of no value the end is only death. Before I knew it I was changing girls like I would my underwear , committing adultery seemed fashionable but the more I moved from one girl to the next the more I got confused about relationships.. 

No woman would quench the thirst I had for fulfillment , I did not stop myself from experimenting ,but all women seemed the same .. then I wondered why did the Bible put value in marriage when all I felt was dissatisfaction in relationships.

I am no bad parent at all , me and your mother we just couldn't make it ,we were too young or to be blunt I was drowning in the world that I lost focus on the real essence of life .

I followed after worldly pleasures,  Ohhh yes I had to be very fashionable girls liked a man who dressed in a certain way .. it was really easy in our days .. dress a certain way ,drive a car and you can get any woman you want...Vanity of vanities it is.

The world had taken me on a journey of no return , the music I listened to encouraged me to act and think in a certain way... This is not new my son... What you are facing is not new at all .

But the Devil operates by stealing time from the children of God. Time wasted is never regained... the time I realised the folly of worldly pleasures I had lost you , and I had already passed my youth, with nothing to show ,only failed marriages , poverty and depression.I had by this time attempted suicide 3 times , I could tell my life was going nowhere.

I had tried every brand of alcohol I knew of to get rid of the emptiness inside of me , and yes I used drugs too... Talk of marijuana I became addicted to it too ...but all of these things are useless , just a weapon used by the devil to keep mankind in chains.

But I met Jesus Christ ,he changed my life.. My life changed after I was introduced to the Jesus Christ of the Bible.

My son obey the commandment of God and do not let anyone or anything derail you from serving him , he loves you the way you are. I am begging you today come and taste the love of God in Jesus Christ you will testify.

Have more time studying the word of God .. Your success is only assured in Jesus Christ.

Give your life to God 

But sanctify the Lord

But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts, and always be ready to give a defense to everyone who asks you a reason for the hope that is in you, with meekness and fear;
I Peter 3:15 NKJV

sanctify [v. a.]:

P 1. Make holy, cleanse from sin.
2. Consecrate, hallow, purify.
3. Sanction, justify, ratify.

I am always emphasizing the importance of words we use ,pure transformation starts with a change of vocabulary . Your perspective of God should change first ,you can't have a fulfilling relationship with God you don't understand ,seek to understand him in the Bible his personality doesn't change from the beginning of time in the days of Adam to date he has been consistent with his character.

He changes not ,but we due to fear and misconceptions we end up viewing him as a personality bend on punishing evil doers, Adam hid himself after commiting sin ,he didn't understand that he is a forgiving God too.Adam did not beg for forgiveness instead he blamed Eve ,and Eve blamed the snake.How many times have you blamed other people or circumstances for your actions instead of taking full responsibility??

It is your responsibility to sanctify God in your heart but how you might ask ,by the confession of your mouth. Your tongue and your mind ,must be under control .

“Teach me, and I will hold my tongue; Cause me to understand wherein I have erred.
Job 6:24 NKJV

My tongue shall speak of Your word, For all Your commandments are righteousness.
Psalms 119:172 NKJV

Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.
Proverbs 18:21 NKJV

God is omnipotent ,he provides our every need . I call him God of restoration whatever you might have lost ,he is preparing something better. He has favoured me ,at one stage I lost everything but he restored my identity.

The best decision I made with my life was to give my life to Jesus Christ ,man it was worth it .My life has been restored.

He gives wisdom to the meek,God who gives identity to the lowly in society , God who gives hope to the hopeless.Jesus washed me clean from all the infirmity .I am glad to be identified with Christ.

God loves you .

Amen

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